My Conscience is Vicious

Dear Reader,

So I need to face facts. I can’t carry on taking caffeine pills to bring myself up when I’m down. My body is getting used to the caffeine intake and its lasting about an hour before I crash quite severely.

Medicated

Dear Reader,

I’m not really very good at looking after myself. Once again, I have run out of medication, now this might not sound like a big deal, but I haven’t taken an antidepressant for about 4 days now so I guess they are starting to leave my system.

Self-Sacrificial

Dear Reader,

Something I have often been told is my biggest problem is that I always put everyone else first.

Social Anxiety

Dear Reader,

I know you shouldn’t diagnose yourself on the internet, but I have never been wrong about a diagnosis I have made about myself in the past. I diagnosed myself with depression before visiting a doctor. I diagnosed myself with dyslexia before being tested and I diagnosed myself with Aspergers before the assessment for that.

My Own Worst Enemy

Dear Reader,

I thought I was hitting a turning point in my depression. As I said before, sometimes my feelings of suicide get so immense that I make excuses to be around people because I know it’s the only way I will be safe.

Bring You Down

Dear Reader,

This is really a follow-up to my last piece, I guess I went off on a tangent last time and now I realise I have missed out something important.

Jumping on the Bandwagon

Dear Reader,

I find it surprisingly hard to talk about how I feel to pretty much anyone, regardless of how close I am to them. I’m not embarrassed about being depressed, I’m just not good at talking about it.

More Than Glad to be Unhappy

Dear Reader,

I have to admit I was starting to get a little worried (As I do, on the occasion this happens) I have woken up the last few days and not felt like I wanted to go drown myself in the shower.

There’s Nothing to Lose

Dear Reader,

After one of the worst days I have had in a long time, which resulted in me writing the most excruciatingly painful thing I have written for a long time, I am feeling slightly better now.

A Long Night Spent With My Most Obvious Weakness

Dear Reader,

I can’t sleep. Please forgive the unintelligibility of this post.