So, its been a really long time since my last post, in fact, I think its almost a month and I feel bad because I kept having all of these ideas (which I should have written down) and then I didn’t act on them or do anything useful. since I’ve been on the 150mg dose of Sertraline I’ve been feeling pretty good. And I think I have finally found “the dose”
What I mean by “the dose” is I think I’ve finally found the right dose of medication that’s working for me and maybe just knowing that has made me feel a lot more positive about things.
Well, I’ve been very up and down but mostly up. I tend to fall down very, very fast but just as soon as it down it back up again so. That’s been alright. I don’t know if the fact that two parcels I’ve been waiting to arrive for almost a month arrived has contributed today but I am feeling really good right now!
I have just got back from my latest doctors appointment. My doctor was in a good mood which also made me happy. And he said straight away that he could see a change in me, which I guess is a positive!
So, he renewed all my regular prescriptions, the contraceptive pill, my allergy nose spray, my sertraline. And then I told him about a little problem I was having.
If you read my last piece you will know I was having a bit of a problem climaxing during sexual activity. Well, let’s just say it hasn’t improved. Well, after 4 weeks of trying we have had two positive sexual experiences, which was a little frustrating. But I felt I owed it to myself and to my partner to talk to my doctor and maybe get a better idea of how to work around this.
I told him I was having an embarrassing problem related to sex, he asked what it was. I was honest and he told me not to be embarrassed, he didn’t laugh at me but I laughed and I guess he was just happy that I wasn’t crying or telling him I was going to hurt myself. So he prescribed me Sildenafil, which most of us would commonly know as viagra. Ill be honest, I didn’t know women could take viagra. But apparently they can. So I guess that’s exciting, although I am kind of nervous about trying it.
Its strange, I remember being terrified of talking about sex and important issues that effected my emotions a few years ago, its something I have learned from my parents and I still don’t feel comfortable discussing my emotions with them or certain other people in my life, including certain friendship groups. But other people I can be so open and honest with that I think sometimes it worries them.
A few years ago, I would have been horrified at the thought of having a prescription for viagra, but now. I find it kind of funny. And I’m looking forward to the experience and what I am going to be able to write about it.
But, of course, this is all fodder for another fantastic post. and so. I will end this here.
It won’t be so long between posts this time.
The Elephant in the Room