Christmas Time Is Here…. Again.

Dear Reader,

So it’s been a really long time since I wrote anything. And the truth is I have been really busy and just been too tired to write. I work in retail which at this time of year is rewarding, frustrating and exhausting in equal measures. I haven’t really had a proper day off this month, by that I mean a day when I didn’t have to force myself to get out of bed and leave the house to either meet someone or buy presents.  Continue reading

Knot in my Throat

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I have been struggling a lot recently, I have wanted to post but I have either forgot, got side tracked or just not really been bothered. Please don’t think that is a reflection on you, I want to write for you. I just don’t really know what to say sometimes. Continue reading

Losing A Whole Year

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I know I keep blabbing on about this book and who knows if I will do it. Sometimes I feel like an idiot for starting it, sometimes I’m really positive. Sometimes I just want to do it for me, sometimes I just want to do it for everyone else.

All I know is the book will more than likely be a narcissist’s dream. Anyway, Here is something I wrote exclusively for the book but decided to post because I wanted to show you that I am at least trying to make it a bit more well written than my blog.

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The Funeral

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I despise being woken up early. So when I was woken at 7am by my mum for a funeral that started at 10am I wasn’t happy, I wake up at the most 1.5 hours before I need to be somewhere. There is no need for me to be awake earlier. So I got an extra 15 minutes in before she began the old, school ritual of yelling “are you awake?”  through my door. The panicky feeling began when I woke up, and it didn’t stop all day. Continue reading

I Am Not Ready: Part 1

Dear Reader,

On the day my mum visited the doctor just a few hours after me. I was scared. When she returned I quickly realised he hadn’t said anything (obvious I guess) but, what I suddenly felt was a lot worse.
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