Unacceptable Behaviour

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I have been dealing with something for the last week that I can only describe as unacceptable, it’s taken me a while to really comprehend the situation and its effect on me. But I have realised that what I have experienced is truly unacceptable.

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Where Do I Begin

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Trigger Warning: Self Harm

It’s been over a week since I last posted, and to be honest I’m not really sure why. I have been really struggling with my motivation recently. But I feel like that’s an excuse, and I don’t want to use excuses. Because the truth is that writing and knowing people want to read it, is really one of the only things I have in my life. Now that may sound a bit dramatic. But honestly. The only “constant” things I really have are this blog and work. Continue reading

Cold Turkey: An Apology

I am an idiot. And that is the truth. I am about to write something that I am actually incredibly ashamed about. Even if I don’t understand my own actions at this time. it’s hard to know that I purposely put myself in danger.
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Pitty and fear: Or, Why I Am Not Yet Ready To Be Referred

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Welcome to my first post for Blog For Mental Health 2015. Please find more information about this fantastic project here: http://blogformentalhealth.com/ Its really easy to take part and help raise awareness.

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My First Sick Day

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I very rarely get ill, I have a very good immune system, probably helped by the fact I sleep with my windows wide open all year round. I’m sure it was a mistake to say that, I have probably cursed myself. Today I am having my first sick day from work ever. Partly because I have made the conscious decision to start putting my health first, but also because yesterday I had a 2 hour long panic attack. And now the thought that I may have another panic attack like that one is making me feel worse. Continue reading