Quetiapine Is Ok!

Dear Reader,

I’ve been taking quetiapine for about a week now and I think I am feeling pretty good.

Unacceptable Behaviour

Dear Reader,

I have been dealing with something for the last week that I can only describe as unacceptable, it’s taken me a while to really comprehend the situation and its effect on me. But I have realised that what I have experienced is truly unacceptable.

Doctor, Doctor, My Brain Hates Me.

Dear Reader,

On Thursday, I went to the doctors for the first time in what feels like forever. I really should have gone last week but as there were no available appointments I had to wait until one was available. Unfortunately as I opted to get an appointment on my day off, it also meant I wasn’t able to see my regular doctor, I had to see a doctor I had never heard of, so naturally I imagined it would be another trainee.

Toughing It Out

Dear Reader,

I’m struggling today. I thought something was wrong when I woke up at 11AM,

Jekyll and Hyde

Dear Reader,

I don’t really know what to say or even where to really begin. I’ve become a bit of a Jekyll and Hyde figure and it’s becoming frustrating.

Art Therapy

Dear Reader,

I’m struggling to think of anything to write about right now, it’s strange. Sometimes my head is full and other times it’s not. I’m feeling odd at the moment, I am up and down. I hope I level out soon. The worst thing is I think I would rather be sad than feel this way. At least when I am sad I know where I am.

Now What’s Wrong With Me?

Dear Reader,

So, I’ve been struggling to get this out. To be honest I’m still struggling now and I feel like I am talking nonsense. or I don’t know. But I read this post over at Walking After Midnight and it made me realise that sometimes It’s ok to just say something, even if you don’t really understand it.

I have had the weirdest 5 days. I have not been myself and whilst I feel its not the first time I have felt this way. It’s been strange for me because this time I have taken much more notice of my sudden behavioural change. 

Breakout

Dear Reader,

Well, I wrote on Monday about how I was going to have to wait 2 weeks to get my appointment which then wouldn’t be for another two months. 

Previously on The Elephant Show

Dear Reader,

If I was to write a comedy about getting referred to mental health services I would base it on my own experiences. In fact, I would just write out my experience because it’s beginning to make me feel that I live in some kind of Truman show-esque world where I am being purposely denied help for entertainment purposes.

The Road to Referral

Dear Reader,

After the pure frustration that was brought about by trying to get in contact with whoever had called me about my referral, I got tired of waiting for a call back on Friday and called them again.