Has It Been That Long?

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Trigger Warning: Talk of Suicidal thoughts

Graphic Content Warning: Discussion of a sexual nature

So it looks like I gave myself a hiatus, and maybe that was a good thing because my brain is all over the place. I feel like I have been shot in the back of the head and I am scraping up pieces of my own brain and trying to cram them back in my skull. I know that’s graphic, slightly weird and maybe a bit confusing but I don’t know how else to explain it.

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Lifeline

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You may have read previously about my problems at work, I didn’t go into specifics, but I made a mistake and someone got in trouble for it. I wasn’t supposed to know and couldn’t say anything out of fear of getting that person in further trouble for discussing it with me. Well. It all got a whole lot worse.

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Where Do I Begin

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Trigger Warning: Self Harm

It’s been over a week since I last posted, and to be honest I’m not really sure why. I have been really struggling with my motivation recently. But I feel like that’s an excuse, and I don’t want to use excuses. Because the truth is that writing and knowing people want to read it, is really one of the only things I have in my life. Now that may sound a bit dramatic. But honestly. The only “constant” things I really have are this blog and work. Continue reading

I Was Ok!

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This post has a Trigger Warning, mentions of Self-harm and Suicide.

I don’t know why I thought this time would be different, I guess deep down I am an optimist, no matter how negative I seem vocally. I don’t want to keep blaming Citalopram for this, but this only seems to happen when I increase or decrease this stupid medication. And I guess I don’t really know what to do. Continue reading